Just Couldn’t Pull The Trigger

Yesterday, I went to the website of the computer football game I have mentioned in this blog. I clicked on the game package I wanted to purchase and put in a discount code. When it came time to actually fill in some information and click “Buy” I couldn’t do it.

I think last year’s experience with bugs in the game and the dismissive attitude of the game’s creator and publisher has just left me cold. I guess I could try to find another pro football computer game, but I am just not at a point where I want another learning curve for something that is, truthfully, not that important. Of course, ask me next week and I might have purchased a game, a new one or the “old” one.

Why I am so indecisive is not as easy to explain as not being able to find a satisfying career post-baseball. That is part of it, of course, but something else is at work. I wish I knew what it was.


On this day in 1869 Charles Hires sold his first root beer, in Philadelphia. He was the first person to brew root beer commercially.

OK, why did I bring this up? On Monday, my wonderful wife and I went to Denny’s for lunch. The results of my blood work before my recent physical were good enough, quite good in fact, so that I am giving myself a month of indulgence. You Seinfeld aficionados remember the episode “The Summer Of George.” Well, this will be The June Of Me.

For Monday lunch I had pancakes and root beer. I think it’s been more than a year since I consumed root beer. When I was younger I disliked it, but it is one of the few comestibles that I have grown to like. OK, you fussbudgets, comestibles is supposed to refer to food and not drink. So sue me…by the way, the pancakes were excellent, but I have hardly eaten them in the last year, either.

I have a fair amount of willpower and discipline, even with food. However, I think you have to reward yourself from time to time.


I cannot indulge myself with the purchase of another vehicle, however. No room at the inn, if you will. No, this is not an excuse to show another picture of a Studebaker Gran Turismo Hawk. No, this is not more exposition about my Ultimate Garage 3.0.

What do you think of this car listed in Hemmings?



This is a 1969 Pontiac Grand Prix. The odometer reads 42,239 miles, but I’m guessing that’s more like 142,239 miles. The seller, Country Classic Cars, is asking $12,950, which seems a tad steep to me for a car with “uncertain” mileage, but I really like the way this car looks. The car would also connect me to my first car, a 1967 Pontiac GTO, and to the car I owned the longest, a 1995 Grand Prix. The hashtag that has been part of this blog from almost the beginning really does resonate with me, #somanycarsjustonelife.







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18 thoughts on “Just Couldn’t Pull The Trigger

  1. I had pancakes, the pancakes were excellent, I had a root beer and another root beer.


  2. After almost a decade of watching what I eat closely, I am a strong devotee of the concept of rewards (in moderation, of course.) If one thinks of weekly goals instead of daily, it allows for a bit of excess as long as one balances with a bit of deprivation.


    1. Thanks, JS. Constant deprivation is depressing and, in my opinion, unnecessary except in cases of extreme conditions. Maybe I’m getting way out of my lane, but my understanding is that people who severely limit their caloric intake often find they reach a point where they are losing little to no weight because their body has slowed its metabolism to keep the person from starving to death. Reducing average calories per day, but splurging 1-2 days a week often works better than a strict diet. I would appreciate being told I am wrong if I am wrong.

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      1. I have seen that as well. Starving leads to binging and leads to weight yoyoing. In my original comment, I was exaggerating when I used the term deprivation. I try to keep my caloric intake only about 500-1000 calories per week lower than what is recommended for my current weight if I am actively trying to lose weight. If I’m maintaining, I try to keep it pretty much at my recommended intake.
        I use a program app called Lose It! to help me determine ideal caloric intake and though I weigh daily (just curious), I only input my weight every 5-10 days or so.
        That method has worked for me… YMMV. 🙂


  3. I’m still feeling my way around what I can, and cannot, eat or drink. After 63+ years of eating/drinking pretty much what I wanted, the learning curve is pretty steep. My sugar is jumping around more than I would like, 110-150 seems to be where I’m at, even taking 1,000 mg of Metformin. I’m hoping that some of that is related to the healing process from surgery, so maybe it will even out over time.

    But in the meantime, pancakes (blueberry pancakes are proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy) and root beer are far down on the list of approved grub. 😦

    Glad your tests allow you the opportunity to consume something you enjoy, even if in moderation. I’m hoping to be able to do the same soon. Funny how whats forbidden becomes more desired. I’m not a big sweets eater, but for the last week I’ve had a serious craving for chocolate pudding. And I probably haven’t had any in 10 years or so.


    1. Thanks for sharing, DDM. Yes, it is amazing that we often crave what we’re not supposed to have, even if we have not had it in awhile.

      A glucose reading of 110-150, especially if some of those readings are after eating, is not bad at all. I have been diabetic for 20+ years. My fasting glucose ranges from 125 to 140 and my Hemoglobin A1C readings virtually always start with a “6” including the last two since moving to Arizona. Of course, regular exercise covers a multitude of sins and gives me a greater margin for error in terms of what I eat and drink. Besides, I am careful with my diet 10-11 months a year. The only time I splurge is right after my blood work, a reward for showing discipline and getting good results. I don’t think too many people my age can report the lowest cholesterol (120) and lowest LDL (63) readings in their entire life. Exercise works and no pills or diet are a substitute.


      1. Unfortunately exercise, and even normal activity, is going to be limited for me for at least another month. Where the surgery was, groin area, severely limits my movement. And then there is the issue of where the giant blister was on my foot. At this time shoes are out, and loose sweats or shorts, are all I can wear. I think it’s gonna get “interesting” tomorrow as I will be fitted with a wound vac on the surgery wound.

        NOT looking forward to the next month, but better than being worm food I guess.


  4. Food indulgences are allowed.

    My wife’s parents owned a ’69 Pontiac Grand Prix like the one pictured only in white with a black vinyl top. I had the opportunity to drive that car on a couple of occasions. Interesting to say the least with the long hood. The black interior made for beastly hot times after sitting in the Arizona sun. The air conditioning was excellent, once it overcame the tanked up heat.


    1. Thanks again, Philip. I think almost anything in moderation is OK, but nothing to excess.

      As I have written in the blog, I have to admit that my car choices are more about how they look to me than anything else. I don’t care if a car has 2,000 HP and can reach 300 MPH, if it’s unappealing to me aesthetically, then I have no interest in it. I am drawn to other cars that cannot be considered high-performance by virtue of their looks. #DSFDF


  5. I love the Grand Prix. Admittedly I’m biased. I’d think based on price this is a 400ci version, not the rarer 428. But I’ve always been a fan of the styling. A friend has a 69 GP in a light green colour, had it about 20 years now. I think they’re handsome cars, and I commend how the designers managed to create a look that was very different from the other A-body GTO/Lemans while still looking like a Pontiac.


      1. Yes, they’re sister ships. I don’t recall completely but they’re built on a modified A-body chassis. I want to say the A-body typically used a shorter wheelbase for the 2 door, and then a longer wheelbase for 4dr and wagons. The GP and MC were created as 2dr coupes but on the larger 4dr wheelbase.
        The earlier GP and MC are often called A-Specials. Similar to how the Cutlass Supreme was differentiated from the Cutlass by a formal roofline, in the next generation that also became a feature. Chevelle, Lemans, Cutlass and Century coupes had a more fastback line. Monte Carlo, Grand Prix, Cutlass Supreme and Regal had a formal roof.


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